Caden's Dilemma (Indiscreet #6) Read online

  “It’s cold.” Caden folded over the bed covers and said, “Get in. The comforter is down, it will be warm in a minute.”

  Caden undressed. Johnny held his breath. There was a large scar on Caden’s shoulder. “How did you get that, Sir?” Johnny asked, not able to bear the thought of Caden hurt.

  “Shrapnel in Afghanistan, almost lost the use of the shoulder.” Caden turned over and pointed to a small scar on his thigh. “A sniper bullet from Iraq. Anything else you want to know about?” Caden teased. He joined Johnny in bed. Johnny kissed Caden’s scars with great care, running his fingers over the puckered skin.

  Caden pulled him into his arms and placed his hand on the back of Johnny’s head, moving it so that their lips touched. Caden gave him gentle kisses. He kissed Johnny on the side of his mouth and laved the crease until Johnny opened for him.

  His tongue slipped in between Johnny’s lips. Johnny could feel the heat of Caden’s body. He placed his hand on the larger man’s chest. Johnny felt the rhythm of Caden’s heart. Caden deepened the kiss, his tongue swirling inside Johnny’s mouth.

  It seemed that Caden was as reluctant as Johnny to end the kiss because by the time Caden let his mouth loose, Johnny was out of breath. Caden’s kisses went deeper. It was as if he was trying to claim Johnny with his mouth alone.

  Johnny shivered.

  “Are you cold?” Caden pulled Johnny closer to share his body heat.

  “No, not cold, just excited.” Johnny admitted this with reluctance. He didn’t want Caden to know how much he cared, especially if Caden rejected him because of the money.

  “I like you excited.” Caden kissed Johnny’s cheek and moved his tongue and teeth to Johnny’s earlobe. He bit down in a gentle fashion. Johnny no longer shivered, he shook with desire.

  “You want me.” Caden smiled.

  “Yes, I do Sir, so very much,” Johnny acknowledged.

  Caden answered him with trailing kisses down his neck and shoulder. “I’m glad because I want you too.”

  Caden moved to Johnny’s nubs. He pinched one with his thumb and forefinger until it turned bright red, then sucked it into his mouth. His mouth traveled over to the second nub. This time Johnny felt the bite of his teeth followed by a swipe of his tongue.

  “So hot, Sir, need you,” Johnny begged.

  Caden’s mouth again caught Johnny’s and they kissed and sucked for what seemed like hours. Caden made love to his mouth. There was no other way to describe it. As Caden’s mouth broke away, Johnny murmured, “More, Sir, please.”

  Caden used his tongue to trace the firm line of Johnny’s pecs. Johnny was proud of his body and rightly so. He worked long and hard to overcome the picture of the skinny, pimpled nerd, with glasses and braces. He had washboard abs and a very tight ass. There was no way anyone could ever accuse Masato of being twink-like or flabby even though he worked at a desk. Every aspect of his countenance looked masculine.

  Caden moved his mouth between Johnny’s legs and began to lick the juncture of his thigh and groin. It was one of his hot spots. Johnny wanted to move Caden’s head to his cock but knew instinctively that it would be the wrong thing to do with this Dom.

  Caden trailed kisses down Johnny’s leg and drew circles behind Johnny’s knee with his tongue. He proceeded to Johnny’s other knee and repeated the action. Johnny went wild, almost jumping off the bed.

  “Slow down, baby. The night is still young and I’ve wanted to do sinful things to your body for a very long time.” Caden came up again to kiss his lips which enabled Johnny to cool down.

  Johnny sighed with resignation. He would have to wait to come until Caden decided he could. Caden laughed almost as if he could hear Johnny’s thoughts.

  Caden whispered, “Yes, we’re going to play at my pace, not yours. By the time I’m finished with you tonight, you’ll be begging me to come.”

  Caden took his mouth away from Johnny’s lips and traveled down his arm. When he reached Johnny’s hand, he took his fingers one by one into his mouth and sucked them. Picking himself up on his forearms he opened the drawer of the nightstand and took out lube and condoms. Johnny thought he was going to get relief from the pressure in his cock. His orgasm was imminent.

  But Caden didn’t put on the condom. Instead he kept torturing Johnny with his mouth and hands until Johnny was a bundle of nerve endings. Caden rolled on his side and started making lazy circles around Johnny’s navel. He dipped his tongue inside then followed the smattering of hair down to Johnny’s cock.

  Here, the hair was also sparse and well trimmed. Johnny wondered if Caden would like it if he waxed or shaved. He had no hair on his chest due to his Asian heritage.

  Before his brain had time to pursue that thought, Johnny felt Caden’s tongue at the tip of his cock and his brain turned to mush. Caden stuck his tongue into the slit and lapped up Johnny’s precum which had already pooled on his navel.

  He moved his mouth around the rim, worrying the sensitive spot underneath the head. “You can’t come without permission,” Caden told him as he took his mouth away from Johnny’s cock to swallow his balls. Caden tongued each one in turn and then licked right up the middle, landing again on the hot spot under the rim.

  Caden moved his tongue around the ridge in a lazy manner. Then suddenly, he opened his mouth and swallowed Johnny whole. Johnny near jumped off the bed.

  “Shush…baby, calm down. I’m going to start to open you up. Is it all right to penetrate you?”

  “Please, Sir. I want you inside me, so bad.” Johnny followed that statement by pushing his pelvis toward Caden in an attempt to show him how much he needed this.

  “Wait a minute, baby.” Caden got up and disappeared into the master bath. Johnny watched as he brought out two towels. He lifted Johnny’s hips and pulled a pillow out from the top of the bed and put it and a towel beneath Johnny’s ass. He set the second towel nearby.

  Johhny heard the snick as Caden opened the cap of the lube. Caden’s finger played around Johnny’s hole and Johnny felt the cold gel of the lube that coated his fingers. Caden had worked up a sweat and Johnny saw a light smattering of perspiration on his brow. He loved the way Caden smelled, clean sweat and the special smell of tilled earth that was Caden’s own.

  Caden lubed his fingers and circled the entrance to Johnny’s hole. Caden began to rub Johnny’s muscle, stretching it until one finger could slide in comfortably. Johnny felt him crook the digit and hit his prostate. Johnny had to thump his cock not to come.

  “None of that, for tonight your body is mine and you can’t touch it without permission. You only get one warning. If you need to, use your safe words.”

  Johnny managed to eke out a “Yes, Sir.” He felt Caden move around his rim and enter his hole with two fingers. When Johnny sucked Caden earlier, he noticed the girth of the man’s shaft. He was no virgin but he wondered if he could take that much cock without pain. He would find out soon enough.

  He was aware when Caden inserted the third finger and stretched the sphincter muscle even further. Caden adjusted Johnny’s ass on the towel-covered pillow and wiped his hand on the second towel. He opened the condom and rolled it down his shaft, lining it up with Johnny’s hole.

  Caden started to push and Johnny felt a slight burn. The muscle popped and Caden’s cockhead was inside his channel. “Nod when you feel comfortable enough for me to continue.” Caden neither withdrew nor pushed inside waiting for Johnny to adjust.

  Johnny cried out. “Please, Sir, I need you so much.”

  Caden pushed all the way inside. “Do you feel me, baby? Tell me how my cock feels inside your hole.”

  “Hot, Sir, you feel huge, yet I am not experiencing any pain. Can I ask you to move, please?” Caden began to push further in until his balls met Johnny’s ass.

  “You took all of me, baby. Good boy.” Caden pulled back them slammed inside again.

  Caden began to move in earnest. “Tell me when you’re close,” he told Johnny.

  Johnny met
Caden’s every thrust. Caden felt perfect inside him, like Caden’s cock was formed to fill Johnny’s hole. Caden thrust and thrust again. Johnny was conscious of Caden’s balls continuously slamming the cheeks of his ass.

  “Please kiss me, Sir.”

  “That’s it, baby, ask for what you want. You won’t always get it but I want you to ask.” Caden’s breath hitched on his last statement.

  § § §

  Caden wanted to shout, Mine, mine to the rooftops. He kissed the boy beneath him with every ounce of love—love, yes love—in his soul. His body moved faster, slamming Johnny into the mattress.

  He shouted, “Now,” and Johnny coated his stomach and chest with his cum. Caden made two more thrusts and then he finished, collapsing on Johnny’s chest.

  Caden kissed Johnny senseless. Johnny’s eyes were heavy-lidded and his lips swollen. His face was chafed with burn from Caden’s five o’clock shadow. Caden looked at his baby’s cheeks. He should have shaved. He rose up from the bed and gave Johnny a light kiss while he took up the second towel and wiped them both down.

  Johnny murmured, “Please don’t leave me.” There was a note of desperation in Johnny’s voice that Caden didn’t understand.

  “Stay put. I’ll be right back, baby, I promise.” Caden went into the bathroom with the towel and put it in the hamper after washing himself off. He retrieved a fresh hand towel and wet a washcloth, wrung it in the sink and strode back into the bedroom. Caden sat on the bed next to Johnny’s prone body and cleaned around his chest and cock.

  “Caden, I need to tell you…” Caden leaned over and shifted himself onto the bed pulling Johnny into his arms.

  “Shush, baby, anything that needs to be said can be said in the morning.”

  CHAPTER ELEVEN

  Thursday

  Johnny woke early and lay still, held closely in the circle of his lover’s arms. He wondered how to tell Caden about the money. The longer he waited, the worse it would be. But he had lost his courage. He didn’t want to lose him so fast. If he waited, maybe he could have Caden a little longer before he found out about Adroit and left him.

  He watched as Caden opened his green eyes and stretched like a sleepy lion with his golden hair just beginning to grow out from his service crew cut. Johnny looked at the clock. “We better get moving, Sir, if you want to be at the club by nine.”

  “You’re right, baby, but first I want to give you something. We don’t know each other well enough yet for me to give you a contract and a collar, but…” Caden reached into the nightstand. “I’d like us to be exclusive until we do. These are my dog tags. Will you wear them for me so no one thinks they can poach, just because you’re not wearing my collar?”

  Oh God, I have to tell him…right now. “Caden, I need…” Johnny had a hard time getting the words out.

  “Baby, I know you need more time. I’ve watched you for six months. You are very cautious and deliberate, just like I am. I’ll give you all the time you feel is necessary. I just have to know that you won’t be seeing anyone else while we explore this thing between us. I’m not asking to be your Master, yet, although I’d like to continue to do scenes with you. I only want your reassurance that you take this as seriously as I do.” Caden kissed Johnny with the tenderness of a long time lover.

  Johnny couldn’t do it. He couldn’t tell him yet. He’d have to talk to the others and ask for help. He whispered, “I’d be proud to wear your tags.” I’ll wear them even if I only get to wear them for a short time. For a short time I’ll know that someone sees me and not my dollars, for good or for bad.

  Caden slipped the tags over Johnny’s head and kissed him with a depth of passion and tenderness he had never known before. “Can I see you Friday, baby?”

  “I’ll be here Friday for you, Caden.” And any other night you choose.

  § § §

  Caden and Johnny pulled into Indiscreet’s parking lot at ten minutes to nine, and Jim met them at the door. “There’s been a change in plans, hon. Junior is coming and taking us all over to Jamie’s. You and Brian can go shopping from there.”

  Johnny watched as Caden looked at Jim strangely. I wonder how he’d look at me if he knew.

  Caden gave Johnny a light kiss and bounded up the stairs to his office. Johnny whispered to Jim, “I thought we were going to my house.”

  “We are,” Jim answered, “but he can’t know that or else he might decide to come along with us out of curiosity.”

  “Okay. When are we leaving? I should call Mrs. Mills and tell her to expect company.”

  “As soon as Brian and Jamie get here. Give me your address so I can text it to Greg. Greg has to get an okay from Cisco. The story is we’re having brunch at Jamie’s house then going to Quakerbridge. I hope there is something you need because he’ll surely ask what you got.”

  “I want to buy something for him, something small but personal. If Junior drives us over, will he tell about the house?” Johnny was anxious about his lies of omission to Caden, and to make Junior lie for him was untenable.

  Brian popped in at the end of the conversation. “Papa Bear doesn’t ask Junior questions anymore. Junior stays out in the car and feigns ignorance. We feed him and give him a thermos of coffee and he’s fine.”

  “He never gets in trouble for hanging out with us,” Jamie said.

  “He can hang out with Aubrey, my driver, while he waits.” Johnny frowned. “At least he’ll be inside and warm.”

  “That will be fine. Since Junior has a place to hang out, maybe we’ll alternate the meetings from my place to yours every other week. This way Junior won’t have to wait in the car.” Jim went to snag some Kona coffee from the urn and put it in the thermos Brian brought.

  “Doesn’t it pollute the air when Junior waits outside?” Johnny asked. Brian shook his head.

  “I worried about that initially but Bear custom ordered the limousine. It’s a hybrid. Junior drives around while he waits or in good weather he naps outside. As long as we give Junior a thermos of Kona and something sweet, he’ll be fine.”

  “I’ll call Mrs. Mills and make sure she has something. Is Danny coming?”

  “He’s right outside calling Gary. Let’s go, Greg said he’d meet us because he doesn’t have appointments until two.”

  § § §

  Mrs. Mills made them banana and date nut bread. The boys gathered in Johnny’s spacious kitchen. “I hope we didn’t put you out, Mrs. Mills.” Johnny kissed the elder woman’s cheek.

  “No, dear, it’s nice that you have new friends. You’re alone too much. I know you go to that club of yours, but you need to see people outside of that environment.”

  “All of my friends here are from the club, Mrs. Mills. They’re all subs like me. Greg is a doctor.” Greg put out his hand and Mrs. Mills took it gracefully.

  “Jamie is a CPA.” Jamie acknowledged Mrs. Mills with a wave.

  “Brian is an investment counselor.” Brian stood up and walked over to give her a kiss.

  “Jim runs the back of the house at the club.” Jim gave her a hug.

  “And Danny is going to school for horticulture. Danny is also Caden’s brother.” Johnny blushed.

  “Isn’t Caden the one you like?” Mrs. Mills sliced up the cake.

  “Yes, Mrs. Mills.” Johnny blushed again, even redder this time.“I didn’t know you listened when I babble,” Johnny said to the short grey-haired lady that kept his life from whirling out of control.

  “I always listen, dear. Now I’ll go out to Aubrey’s and sit with him, Ellen, Henry and your friend, Junior. We’ll have our own gossip session.” Mrs. Mills winked at the assembled subs, put on her coat and walked across the breezeway to one of the other two houses on the property.

  “Who’s Henry?” Jamie asked.

  “He’s Aubrey and Ellen’s grandson. They have him because his parents died. I have tea.” Johnny held up the berry blossom tea from Teavana.

  “I love that stuff,” Jamie said. “This is a special trea
t.”

  “Jamie won’t buy it because it’s too expensive and they are supposed to be saving money to invest with Jake Cohen’s guy,” Brian told them. “Oh, you have a big Blue Hall teapot. It’s beautiful.”

  “Please don’t think Bull is cheap. If I wanted the tea, he would make sure I had it, but Bull wants us to be able to retire early with enough to keep us living well, so I save where I can.” Jamie gave Brian a dirty look. “He paid so much for me at the auction, it practically wiped him out.”

  “Hey Jamie, lighten up. I know Bull’s not cheap. Look at the collar he bought for you.” Jamie preened.

  Johnny carefully prepared the tea the way he saw Jim do it on Tuesday.

  “I see you paid attention,” Jim said. “It took these knuckleheads weeks to learn to make tea properly.” Mrs. Mills had put out the cake, plates and cups.

  “When you write software, you have to be detail-oriented. No one likes software filled with bugs. It’s better to get it right the first time.” Johnny poured the tea and sat down.

  “So what’s the problem, hon?” Jim asked putting his hand on top of Johnny’s.

  “I love him,” and with that Johnny started to sniffle.

  “Does he love you back?” Danny asked immediately.

  “He gave me these.” Johnny took his hand away from Jim’s and put it under his shirt bringing out the dog tags.

  “He loves you,” Danny told him with an air of finality.

  “But he doesn’t know about the money.” Johnny moaned as he took a sip of tea.

  “Then tell him…this banana bread is wonderful. Can you ask Mrs. Mills to give me the recipe? Cisco will love it.” Greg wolfed down his piece.

  “What if I tell him and he doesn’t want to see me anymore?” Tears flowed down Johnny’s face.

  “Then we’ll all have to work to make him see reason,” Jim said as he sipped his tea. “It isn’t as if you blatantly lied to him. No one knew but Reed, and now us. I think we can make him see you were only trying to protect yourself from fortune hunters, or even worse, a Dom who ran the other way because of the money and didn’t take the time to get to know you.”